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     Mkay, so... I've never struggled so much with money until I got married. It seems to be the root of all problems because we never have enough of it. I used to save money in a personal account that she never knew about, that way, when the funds got tight (which is quite regular) we'd always had enough backed up so we could still live. But because "families don't hide sh!t from each other." she figured it out, and then I was allowed to save, didnt even have to tell her how much was saved, which was SWEET.... because I was able to save 1000 bucks. Well, that lasted for 5 months because when we needed to tap into it, somebody else already had, damn you student loans... they took the whole damn amount. I understand the lack of me seeing that happening being bad for my family, and I also understand that they loaned me the money, so they deserve to get it back. it just really sucks because it was a lot, and things were going positively. Anyways from that I've never been allowed to save money again. Which sucks because of the lack we can keep any given month.

      The money gets spent by... "I need to go to the dollar store for a mask and gloves," (Because pregnant women cant change cat litter. Even though there is a swifter and paper towel already here.)  Meanwhile the car drinks gasoline worse then Obama. chug chug chug...   CHING!

      Can we go to a going away party?" Ok, I thought... the friend is pretty cool, there will be drinks/food already there, spending just gas for a few hours of fun, good stuff right? WRONG!!! after getting part way there she gets a text saying that it doesnt start till 2000hrs, and it's currently 1800hrs and it will start after T's bedtime, so we turn around, and then she asks...

"I feel ill, I need a ginger ail pop" UGHHH. I was sick just the other day, do you know what I needed? T3's and a good night sleep. that aside, dollar stores are closed so we go to wallmart and buy a pair of 1LT's... (I ended up having one too because why only let one person get the goods?) $3 with depo fee, and taxes = 4.70 fuck really, ok bought. drove home.

     Meanwhile, we're living off money we got from pawning off a guitar (her's from before being married thankfully) so one would think - HEY, LETS NOT SPEND THIS CASH!! but whatever, when the account hit's zero, we'll just ask the in-laws for money again, cause that's what she does.

    I could live off 100 a week, (without rent included) my family can't. Which is funny because I make over 100 a day, so clearly money gets spent aggressively here in this house.

PS. I'm not happy.